So, this fit bitch...

Day 16: When did you first decide to lose weight?

A lot of people who have been overweight for a significant amount of time talk about how they have struggled with losing weight since, well, for as long as they have been fat. Every diet has failed them. They’re stuck this way.

I, however, never tried to lose weight. I ate what I wanted, whatever I wanted, when I wanted it. I did not workout or exercise at all. It had never occurred to me just how big and unhealthy I was. I never felt really big, so I didn’t see the problem.

I don’t know whether it was seeing candid (ie: mega unflattering) photos of me or hearing from family say they were concerned for my health that pushed me into it, perhaps a combination of both. But I woke up one day in July of 2010 and thought, enough is enough.

I started by throwing out every unhealthy food option in my apartment. I went on the search for a stationary bicycle and bought wii fit (which I was embarrassingly too heavy for, the weight limit on the plus version is 330lbs, I was at 348.5, ugh).

I remembered hearing “it takes 3 weeks to form a habit” and knew I had to make exercise a habit. So? I worked out every. single. day. for at least 30 minutes. I did not count calories at this point, just chose healthy options and in smaller amounts. I lost 15lbs the first month and that was the push I needed to keep going.

It clearly has been a long journey, I had expected that - I had a lot to lose. There is no quick fix though. When people ask me for help to lose weight, the first thing I tell them is this is a lifelong commitment. You can’t lose weight then go back to your old habits, you’ll just end up at the same place.

Ultimately, no one is stuck being fat. You just have to be ready to change, completely. When you want to, you’ll know. You can wish for it until you’re blue in the face, but you won’t get there unless you work for it.